More Pre-Tracon updating

My mind slipped several times during this. Tired. Still not really understanding what I wrote. Excuse me.

So the 'plan', if I ever had one, changed. Basically, I'm trying to finish Lyon again. However... though today was steady enough, I've been feeling worse again. Like... I got a stomach flu. Or something. I really have no idea.

Not to mention it's barely 22:13 and I had to give up for today. I didn't get much sleep last night, true, but it's not all that. Even the simple tasks seem to become horribly taxing. Sucks.

It's not like all hope has gone, but the con getting less and less likely for me.

So... yeah. I wanted to keep updating. Still do. Turned this into a cosplay blog somewhere along the way, but eh, there'll be other stuff too. When I have energy or learn to write properly. Or both, but that's a little optimistic.

Like I said, I'm horrribly tired. Just.... on the verge of collapsing. I was planning to stay up pretty late into the night working on the costume, at least until the Ellen DeGeneres show. It's something my mom found a while ago. I ended up watching it yesterday, since I felt a little wobbly trying to get off the couch. ;; Ehehe. Anyway. It's surprisingly good. Amusing, not even tasteless, a little weird but just so hilarious at times. I realy wanted to watch it, but... yeah. I don't know. Sleepy.

Uh. Didn't make much sense.

"Wait...."

"... did that self-made pattern just actually work?!"

Apparently, I should only be allowed to make costumes while deprived of sleep. I just whipped up a whole (first experimental version of a) shirt on the first try. That just doesn't happen to me. .__.;; I mean... really? No adjustments at all?

Not to mention sawing a straight line is just so much easier while only half awake.

Earlier today I had to announce I couldn't make a costume I had planned to make for a very, very long time. Due to lack of time. Not that I'd give up on it, no way. I just happened to get another load of bad luck right after the first failure: I got sick. Again. In the middle of June. That doesn't happen to me either.

It was just some flu going around, but I was bedridden for a whole week. I slept through the days and nights, 13-16 hours minimum. When I was awake, I could barely hold myself together long enough to get a meal - as long as I didn't have to lift a finger to get it. So I slept. And sneezed. And coughed. A lot.

I'm still not completely healthy, but eh... what can you do. I decided I had to do something when I first slept 'til dinner. OTL;; Besides, I'm feeling a lot better.

Anyway... back to where I started, the costume. I was kind of going to do what I usually do; not deal with it and lie around being all depressed. Then... things happened, and I got into a 'eff you too, world' mood and started working on it anyway. I still can't believe I can just finish it flawlessly, but I had half the mood from making the pants already. So why not. I'll just have to see how I feel about it tomorrow... or the day after. I'll need to decide for good soon enough.

That's about it for now, I guess. I know I wouldn't be doing these things if it wasn't for you all, so... I love you. ♥ Never forget that. Even if I start sulking again.