365 day challenge: Day 191

Day 191: Are you excited for anything right now?

Season 2 of Hannibal. I'm scared, too, you never know if they'll fuck something up, but... it's been glorious so far.

365 day challenge: Day 190

Day 190: Put your iPod or mp3 player on shuffle and list the first ten songs/artists. 

Ohh boy. I'm not even sure where the player is so I'll just do this with the WMP playlist F on shuffle.

1. P!nk - Blow Me (One Last Kiss)
2. Kent - Dom Andra
3. Siouxsie Sioux - Here Comes That Day
4. Aqua Timez - Sen no yoru wo koete
5. MUCC - Chiisana mado
6. Alanis Morissette - Mary Jane
7. Dido - Hunter
8. L'arc~en~Ciel - HONEY
9. Hurts - Unspoken
10. Stone Sour - Say You'll Haunt Me

365 day challenge: Day 189

Day 189: List everything you like about yourself, and explain why. What makes you unique?

Ugh. My patience? The fact that I can work fast when needed and not overly burdened by things out of my control. The fact that I'm relatively intelligent. My ability to put others' needs before my own, even if sometimes I go about it wrong. Way wrong.

I don't know if any of these stand out - I think my uniqueness is more in my shortcomings and the way everything about me mixes.

365 day challenge: Day 188

Day 188: What are you always carrying around with you?

Just my keys, mostly. Often my cellphone and/or emergency money.

365 day challenge: Day 187

Day 187: Post a picture of yourself, taken today, and five random facts about yourself.

1. You know how kids often want to be vets and doctors and teachers all at the same time? There was a time when I basically wanted to be Tarzan and a magical elf girl.
2. I love water. I love swimming, I love baths, I love just floating around in lakes.
3. Despite all the shit in my head and everything that's happened, I had a relatively tame childhood/adolescence.
4. Without proof to the contrary, I still default to thinking I'm worthless.
5. I'm starting to redefine 'loneliness' for myself a little.

365 day challenge: Day 186

Day 186: Have you ever made a time capsule? If yes, with who, do you remember what you put inside? If not, what would you put inside if you had to put something in right now?

I haven't. And... that depends on the purpose? A letter, in any case, but then? What is important now but not digitally recorded to last for ages anyway? I guess... some sort of meagre analysis of the current culture and atmosphere from various points of view. A list of what are now considered 'classics'. Photographs? I really don't know.

365 day challenge: Day 185

Day 185: Where will you be in ten years?

I have no idea. It still feels weird to think I might be alive then.

Working, probably - hopefully still managing to study something.

365 day challenge: Day 184

Day 184: When you think of your best friend, what is your first memory? How did you meet them, explain him/her.

... I don't have a best friend. Now it's only half honouring the one best friend I had and half my dynamics just not working that way. I don't think I'm anyone's best friend, either.

365 day challenge: Day 183

Day 183: You are told you have one week left to live, how do you spend it?

Making a functional will, deciding who to donate my possessions to. Sorting out issues with people I love, writing them letters, maybe compiling playlists and buying gifts, attempting to meet up. Talk. Cling. Or maybe I chicken out of asking for anything again and pass without a proper goodbye.

365 day challenge: Day 182

Day 182: A picture that makes you laugh

365 day challenge: Day 181

Day 181: A picture of your favourite memory

I don't think I could ever choose one favourite in my whole life. Have something.

365 day challenge: Day 180

Day 180: What is the most inspiring book you have read?

Honestly, I have no idea. It might help if the question was more specific about the type of inspiration, but honestly - I've read way too many to really put them in any sort of order. I'd have to guess it was one I read when I was too young to remember it now and young enough to be easily inspired.

Imperfect as they are, the Tarzan books had a profound influence on me way back when.

365 day challenge: Day 179

Day 179: How did you spend your last birthday?

... I'm... not sure. Hiding from the world, probably? That's what usually happens.

365 day challenge: Day 178

Day 178: A goal you have this weekend

Having summarized the entire Ogata thing for Kim or found a transcript by Sunday.

365 day challenge: Day 177

Day 177: Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Not being a complete mess for the duration of the con? Managing to get to work on time even with the sleep deprivation?

365 day challenge: Day 176

Day 176: Do you enjoy cooking

I don't hate it. I don't usually feel like I have time for it, but it's nice to feel like you created something worthwhile.

365 day challenge: Day 175

Day 175: Songs you listen to when you’re happy

... I don't actually listen to music that often nowadays. I feel weird about it, I  do, but it just doesn't happen. I don't need background noise and when I hear songs I like I tend to prefer focusing on them.

I have been trying to make playlists though: the 'happy' one has Happy Birthday Yeah Yeah Wow Wow by ORANGE RANGE on it.

365 day challenge: Day 174

Day 174: How do you think you’re going to act like in 10 years

How should I know? There's a lot that could happen. Hopefully... somewhat composed, safe until provoked, true.

365 day challenge: Day 173

Day 173: Is there something you laugh at every time it happens

Every time I come across this:

365 day challenge: Day 172

Day 172: What kind of person attracts you

Someone... unique, as dumb as that sounds; someone whose sole ambition isn't to be "like everyone else" or "normal", someone who is true to themselves. Someone who shares my views, well, the important ones. Someone who is capable of thinking for themselves and understands morality. Someone who doesn't view discussion primarily as a ball game in which quick, witty returns outweigh the actual content.

365 day challenge: Day 171

Day 171: One famous guy you would marry in an instant

Uh. Ian McKellen??

365 day challenge: Day 170

Day 170: What is something you notice throughout high school

... I have barely any idea what this is trying to ask me. Either way, I haven't gone to "high school".

365 day challenge: Day 169

Day 169: What is your life motto

I don't have one. I haven't found any one sentence that felt real enough while still encompassing the whole of life.

365 day challenge: Day 168

Day 168: How do you feel about cyber bullying

It's real and it affects people. You shouldn't do it any more than you should bully someone face-to-face, it leaves a mark and can scar people for the rest of their lives. The online presences of many of us are very tangible nowadays and can take a hit just like our bodies.

365 day challenge: Day 167

Day 167: Funniest movie you have ever seen

I couldn't possibly choose. Helmiä ja sikoja?

365 day challenge: Day 166

Day 166: Have you ever had a teacher that changed your life

I guess in some way all of them did. Most memorable would be the shitty music teacher that probably killed any possibility of me being into music or trying to learn to play or sing, the impressive aikido teacher who solidified my opinion on people like him and the kind, passionate Finnish teacher who fought to get me to pass and believe in my abilities.

365 day challenge: Day 165

Day 165: Favourite type of music

I don't have one. The good type? The type with a story or the one with a beat or melody that takes you with it? The type with good vocals or the one with violin?

365 day challenge: Day 164

Day 164: One thing many people don’t know about you

I planned to live together with my best friend from kindergarten.