365 day challenge: Day 283

Day 283: Describe your perfect date

I don't have one, there are countless things to do on dates. I just want it to be comfortable and fun for both - what achieves that obviously depends on the other person.

365 day challenge: Day 282

Day 282: If you were stranded on an Island, who would be with you and which limited 10 items would you two have?

Anyone that could stand to be with me for that long and wouldn't be in any more danger than me.

1. Hopefully something that would signal our location, more GPS than flares if I got to choose.
2. A machete or a similar blade.
3. A smaller knife.
4. Something to sharpen the above with.
5. Flint.
6. Kettle etc. to purify water in, unless one of the items can be "unlimited drinking water".
7. Sleeping bags and/or blankets.
8. Hats or similar protection from sun.
9. A set of clothes.
10. Glasses.

365 day challenge: Day 281

Day 281: Someone you would switch lives with for a day and why

Someone with a lot of power they're using for the wrong purposes and a lot of followers who could possibly be disillusioned. Or maybe a friend who was also curious about my life.

365 day challenge: Day 280

Day 280: What was the last movie you watched, write about it

That... must have been Saving Face.

A movie of two queer Asian-American women, their relationship, family and life.

I didn't know what to expect from it, except for the queerness, and got a whole lot more than I ever thought. It was... good. Not phenomenal or life-changing but still good. I'm glad it exists.

365 day challenge: Day 279

Day 279: One story of a memory you have.

Once in kindergarten I remember getting into a rare fight with another kid - over who would be Chip and who Dale.

365 day challenge: Day 278

Day 278: Two things you want.

1. Improvement; skills, knowledge etc.
2. To "be there" for those I love.

365 day challenge: Day 277

Day 277: Three things you miss

1. Our dog.
2. A friend.
3. Every good memory, but that's mostly nostalgia.

365 day challenge: Day 276

Day 276: Four things you wish you could say, but might never.

I don't like these questions. I would be saying it here, wouldn't I?

365 day challenge: Day 275

Day 275: Five songs you like.

1. Crystal Ball by Keane
2. Run Boy Run by Woodkid
3. Oh No by Marina and the Diamonds
4. This Is War by Thirty Seconds To Mars
5. -OZONE- by Vistlip

365 day challenge: Day 274

Day 274: Six things you love

1. My friends.
2. Our dog.
3. Any dog, really. Any friendly animal.
4. Being in water.
5. Making people I like happy.
6. Learning.

365 day challenge: Day 273

Day 273: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. I'm not good enough.
2. I have so many things I should be doing.
3. Hehehe, puns.
4. [fandom thoughts]
5. [fic/doujin ideas]
6. I want to show this thing to [insert friend].
7. I wish I could write.

365 day challenge: Day 272

Day 272: What was the worst thing to happen to you in middle school?

I've technically never been in middle school/anything comparable to junior high. That would be about ages 10~13? Hm.

365 day challenge: Day 271

Day 271: Who makes you happier than anyone else?

I don't think it's a good idea to define people by this or expect it to be a constant of any sort. Anything could happen at any time and the people you love most can easily hurt you the most. Someone might make you feel safe but not loved, or the other way around, or either of those but still fail to "make you happy".

365 day challenge: Day 270

Day 270: What would your dream house/apartment/castle/tree house/loft/bungalow/etc. look like?

My "dream house" will always depend on my situation and who would possibly be living with me. Alone, I would love to live in a tree house or a wizard tower - with friends, a castle or a mansion? But I would also be happy with an apartment full of bookcases and near the people closest to me.

Things that I would love to have: trapdoors, secret entrances, enough storage space and a room for sewing/crafts, fire safety, fast internet, a fireplace, a bath tub. A pool if, we're being less realistic.

365 day challenge: Day 269

Day 269: How are you similar to and different from the majority of Tumblr users?

I have no idea what actually is the majority. What I see most of are the fandom and SJ corners but there are probably even more of the everyday casual users - tumblr seems to be like the next facebook, to be honest, almost every kid has it. Especially in English-speaking countries.

So. I wouldn't know.

365 day challenge: Day 268

Day 268: An overused saying.

Overused. Hmm. I wouldn't call it overused unless it was inaccurate or incomplete somehow. Maybe "curiosity killed the cat" then?

365 day challenge: Day 267

Day 267: When you’ve had a terrible day, how do you deal with it?

I... don't? I go over what happened and why and if it could have been avoided, feel like shit, deliberately exhaust myself and hope sleep will make it better.

365 day challenge: Day 266

Day 266: An old song you still like

Parlor by Kent.

Actually... several by Kent. And of course, nearly everything by t.A.T.u.

365 day challenge: Day 265

Day 265: Post a picture of your outfit, or explain it

+ Converse

365 day challenge: Day 264

Day 264: How are you wearing your hair

In... the braid from yesterday.

365 day challenge: Day 263

Day 263: List how you did your make up today

I didn't. Sorry to be boring.

365 day challenge: Day 262

Day 262: List your favourite stores

I don't shop much. When I do I go through everything cheap enough to actually afford, H&M etc. included. Here are some honorary mentions though:

• used book shops in general
• geek shops in general
• Sock Dreams
• Adlibris
• Eurokangas

365 day challenge: Day 261

Day 261: List what you did/plan to do today

Went shopping with people, got hot chocolate, finally saw a Westfield, ate good food, had a smoothie and bought some nail polish that was on sale. I couldn't really find what I was looking for but it was fun enough anyway.

365 day challenge: Day 260

Day 260: List your five favourite songs

I've said it before and will probably end up saying it again - I don't listen to music that often. Lately even less, what with the lack of headphones and time home with a laptop and a charger. The following are a random mix of whatever new...ish discoveries came to mind first in no particular order:

1. Alphamatic Replacement by Xauric
2. Lazarus Phenomenon by Bike For Three!
3. Braveheart by Neon Jungle
4. Shalott by Emilie Autumn
5. They by Jem

365 day challenge: Day 259

Day 259: List your family members and how they help you daily

Mother, father, brother. They don't. I could ask my parents for help in an emergency but that's not "daily help".

The dog makes the world a bit brighter just by existing even if that means I miss her constantly.

365 day challenge: Day 258

Day 258: List five bad things about your life

1. Depression, anxiety etc.
2. Unfortunate "love life".
3. My body, looks and health both. Mostly looks but having either would be nice, you know? Neither are things I can do much about even with extensive operations either. And so, this is what I'm stuck with.
4. Lack of meaning and direction.
5. I'm useless.

365 day challenge: Day 257

Day 257: List five good things about your life

1. Friends.
2. Free education in Finland.
3. Animals tend to like me.
4. Fandoms - or, well. Quality consumable media, source texts or fanworks. The fandoms can be as full of shitty people as the rest of the world and the best thing is, again, friends.
5. The internet?

365 day challenge: Day 256

Day 256: List five things you want to say to ten different people at this moment

Ten? That's a lot. That's too many people for me to think about constantly and know in real life. I don't usually focus on more than six enough to have things to say to them. (Besides, how am I supposed to divide this? Put them into general categories? "I like you" "I hate you" "talk to me" "go away"?)

1. "I love you and I'm glad you're in my life. I dearly hope you will continue to be for a long time. I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing things about you." Ruu, ttuw, Kim.
2. "You make my world a little happier, a little brighter, and I'm glad I had the chance to meet you." to the aforementioned, Katie and select volleyfriends. (Are they a unit? If not, this makes... 4+5? Well then. 4+1.)
3. "I'm inexplicably fond of you even when talking about gross habits." Femi and Katie get honorary mentions.
4. "Please fuck off of the face of the planet or drop dead asap." Bigots, militant conservatives and right-wingers all over the world (one unit) and my brother.
5. "Stop spewing nonsense, grow up and return to being a promising acquaintance instead of someone I'll end up hating." An unnamed new person in an unnamed old fandom and a new, barely-there volleyfriend.

That makes ten.

365 day challenge: Day 255

Day 255: List your five favourite drinks

1. Green tea.
2. Drinks mixed with vodka/whiskey, Curacao & lemonade/lemon & lime soda.
3. Bubble teas like... mango black tea or kiwi smoothie or passion juice fruit bombs and a lot more. Bubble tea.
4. Black tea blends like Keisarin morsian or Tiikerin päiväuni.
5. Pear juice, such as Juissi.

365 day challenge: Day 254

Day 254: List your five favourite foods

Oh. I'm not sure I have favourites. Here are some things I've enjoyed lately?

1. Kimbap, especially vegetable ones.
2. Bubble tea, various combinations.
3. Fried noodles and noodle soups, especially ramen, apparently.
4. Mint and pear ice-creams/milkshakes.
5. Grilled ribs..?

365 day challenge: Day 253

Day 253: List five things that make you sad

1. Sad dogs – well, sad pets in general. They're so helpless and full of trust and you just feel like you keep letting them down.
2. Sad friends. I would always rather know they're sad than ignore or assume anything but not being able to help is... awful.
3. Knowing I'm not good enough.
4. Being ignored or replaced. Getting left behind in favour of someone else. This obviously only applies to people I care about but do I even need to point that out?
5. Change. Not just change for the worse - neutral change as well. Seeing things disappear and get forgotten, people developing new habits and mannerisms and losing old ones... losing common interests, seeing people important to me leave circles we could connect in. Even when the change ends up being for the better a part of me will always turn to melancholia.

I tried to find things that made me primarily sad and only peripherally induced rage rather than things that make me angry while just being overall devastating. The divide turned out to be less clear than I thought it would be.